I met the girl for lunch. she already had it when i came by to pick her up at her school. Anyway we went out so i could have a bite on something to eat myself. She appeared tired about school problems. Went to mall for pizza. had the tedious pizza. Went back outside to the parking. We stand on the car talking till we had nothing more to do than make out. I was tense. But I felt neutral in some way and i think so did she: Now she wants us to be just great friends.

She even came with that "its not you, its me" thing.

Broke my heart. I tried to warn myself. Its like i blew it in the wrong time. She was a box I didnt wanted to open right now. But she was so desperate about trying to reach me and overwhelmed by problems, i had to go to her. Its a pity it turned up this way. I feel a bit used, you know?

I feel that next years will be some of the best in my life.

I keep delaying projects. I dont study much. You lie in the bed you made. And I hope im always on time for a change. When will a coke bottle from the sky will bump my head and change my mind?